8 Nov 2008
Yesterday i got up early and went to SGH to do my routine blood test. I was actually quite looking forward to my lunch cum breakfast after completing the blood test as i had to starve the night for the cholesterol test. I have been controlling my diet for the entire week and looking forward to a good lunch and maybe a bit of sinful food...
"人重是会向往得不到的东西， 这一点也没错。以前不会有craving 的东西，先在因为 most of the time 需要 control, 所以更会想吃。我觉得不是真的想吃， 而是要满足一钟欲望。"
After blood test, i went for my meal at Amara foodcourt. It was already 11.45am. Initially wanted to give myself a treat at Burger King but decided against it. I went to the foodcourt at Amara and ordered Yong Tau Hu. I remembered something which Auntie Yi May said: "sometimes eating out also dunno what to eat." Its true... now i will always go for either fish soup, mee hoon kway, mixed vege rice or yong tau hu (the rest of the food in the foodcourt either dun appeal to me anymore).
3.30pm : I was halway thru my work when SGH nurse called me. Shit ! I'm quite confident and thought my blood results were alright this time round. But she said my potassium results were high and told me to go back to take the medication to lower my potassium. I was initially in quite a happy mood but on hearing that, my heart dropped. Why?? My potassium haven't been high for a long time, what did i eat recently? I tot i have been controlling quite well these 2 weeks bef the blood test. Sianz... what is wrong? I went back and look at my food diary but really couldn't figure out what is wrong. I didn't take high potassium food these few days, why is the potassium level high? I give up trying to figure out !!
Just hope that the other test results were ok when i go collect the report from the doctor next week.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
27 Oct 2008
Another month has passed. Today is Deepavali holiday, finally found some time to sit down and update my blog...
How shld i start? Ok, my issue with high blood pressure medication is one. This has been causing me much distress and i realized again the importance of health & that all medications will have adverse reactions. I really hope that i will have a chance to be healthy again and not lived in the shadows of any illness. I prayed...
Then the financial crisis in US which is affectong the rest of the world. Our governmenthas announced the economic recession which is estimated to last for a few years. Business in recruitment is also affected because of the economic situation. Employees are fearful to resign at this time and companies are cautious of employing perm staff. I went to the airport to have dinner on Huifen's invitation last week and was surprised that not much people dines at the restaurants. Was it because of the economic recession? How long will it last?
Time passes quickly, 2 more months and we will be approaching 2009. Well, i guesed i have changed a lot since the occurence of my kidney failure. I learned flower arrangement, started to enjoy cooking rather than watching tv, being closer to mum and going to temples. Have i become older or rather more matured in thinking?
How shld i start? Ok, my issue with high blood pressure medication is one. This has been causing me much distress and i realized again the importance of health & that all medications will have adverse reactions. I really hope that i will have a chance to be healthy again and not lived in the shadows of any illness. I prayed...
Then the financial crisis in US which is affectong the rest of the world. Our governmenthas announced the economic recession which is estimated to last for a few years. Business in recruitment is also affected because of the economic situation. Employees are fearful to resign at this time and companies are cautious of employing perm staff. I went to the airport to have dinner on Huifen's invitation last week and was surprised that not much people dines at the restaurants. Was it because of the economic recession? How long will it last?
Time passes quickly, 2 more months and we will be approaching 2009. Well, i guesed i have changed a lot since the occurence of my kidney failure. I learned flower arrangement, started to enjoy cooking rather than watching tv, being closer to mum and going to temples. Have i become older or rather more matured in thinking?
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Struggle with HBP medications
Amlodipine has all along been giving me problems of ankle swollenness since i started taking it to control my Bp. Initially i thought the oedema is due to my kidney condition. But i found out after changing several medications for Bp that it was not so, as the problem of ankle oedema only occurs with Calcium Channel Blockers (CCBs).
23 Sep 2008 Dr Roger Tan changed Atenalol for me. I took it for abt 2 weeks and realized that this medication is not suitable for me. Blood pressure is not as effectively controlled as amlodipine and pulse rate becomes very low (40s per min).
09 Oct 2008 Medical follow up with Dr HK Tan at SGH. He changed the medication to Adalat for me based on my request that CCBs are best effective for me. He prescribed Adalate LA 30 mg for me. Well, the medication was very effective, so effective that the BP can be reduced to quite low 1-2 hours after taking. However, the effect only last for 6-7 hours. Same side effects as amlodipine - ankle oedema.
16 Oct 2008 Roger Tan came to the dialysis centre again. Well, can see that he is a good doc and quite commited though young. He know abt my problem with Adalat and prescribed another medicine for me to replace it -Valsartan. He said it was very good and i though with this medication will be the end of my ankle swollenness & BP problems. I was overjoyed too soon. Lucky the pharmacist only gave me 2 weeks of medication. Valsartan don't work for me at all (same as Lorsatan). After one week of trying, i gave it up and switched back to Amlodipine.
Amlodipine ultimately is the most comfortable medication that i can be contented with. Although it will cause ankle swollenness, its most effective in controlling my BP. Ankle swollenness is unsighlt esp when i want to wear skirts or 3 quarters. But what to do? I just have to make do with it and think of ways which i can reduce the swollenness. Anyway no point thinking of prettyness when i'm a kidney failure person. Health comes bef anything.
23 Sep 2008 Dr Roger Tan changed Atenalol for me. I took it for abt 2 weeks and realized that this medication is not suitable for me. Blood pressure is not as effectively controlled as amlodipine and pulse rate becomes very low (40s per min).
09 Oct 2008 Medical follow up with Dr HK Tan at SGH. He changed the medication to Adalat for me based on my request that CCBs are best effective for me. He prescribed Adalate LA 30 mg for me. Well, the medication was very effective, so effective that the BP can be reduced to quite low 1-2 hours after taking. However, the effect only last for 6-7 hours. Same side effects as amlodipine - ankle oedema.
16 Oct 2008 Roger Tan came to the dialysis centre again. Well, can see that he is a good doc and quite commited though young. He know abt my problem with Adalat and prescribed another medicine for me to replace it -Valsartan. He said it was very good and i though with this medication will be the end of my ankle swollenness & BP problems. I was overjoyed too soon. Lucky the pharmacist only gave me 2 weeks of medication. Valsartan don't work for me at all (same as Lorsatan). After one week of trying, i gave it up and switched back to Amlodipine.
Amlodipine ultimately is the most comfortable medication that i can be contented with. Although it will cause ankle swollenness, its most effective in controlling my BP. Ankle swollenness is unsighlt esp when i want to wear skirts or 3 quarters. But what to do? I just have to make do with it and think of ways which i can reduce the swollenness. Anyway no point thinking of prettyness when i'm a kidney failure person. Health comes bef anything.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Making Hakka Soon Kueh
27 Sep 2008
"Mum, u bought the soon kueh powder, are u thinking of making soon kueh?" I asked during breakfast. "Ya lor, thought of making, but must see got time or not, why not we make it today?" Mum says. "Ok, onz. What else do you need? I go buy." This is the start of our day of making soon kueh - something that i have been pestering mum to teach me for a long time...
We finished our lunch at 2pm and went about cutting the 豆干 into small cubes. After which, mum went on to fry all the ingredients. Hakka soon kueh is different from the ones that we normally buy and eat. Outside, they only sell the turnip ones but traditional hakka soon kueh's ingredients is actually 豆干 and 蒜 with minced meat. So different from the normal ones which i like to eat.
Making the dough is the most difficult part. One person has to help to pour the flour slowly into the water while another person has to stir continuously. Finally, when the mixture is ready, have to knead the dough untill smooth. I watched as mum knead the dough with all her strength. My god, eating is easy but look at all the effort behind it.When the dough mixture is ready, mum taught me how to roll into small cups for the fillings. Hey, its not easy at all. The dough have to roll untill very thinly and transparent so that it will not be so thick when eating. The best part is it must be even and not broken if not the fillings would drop out and the shape will not be nice. Mum's soon kueh is very nice. Mine is just acceptable. Haha:)
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Recent Updates
20 Sep 2008
Wow, so fast. Two months passed sinced i last update my blog. Time flies and goes. Let me see, what happened these two months. I realised time really pass very quickly, especially now that i'm working in Staff Solutions. Monday, then tuesday... go for dialysis.. wednesday.. thursday.. go for dialysis then friday and its weekend. Ah! time pass so fast, so many resumes sent and follow up done in a week but so hard to close orders. Candidates come and go. Good candidates esp chinese will find job in just a day time. Today interview, tomorrow already found job... where did all the good candidates go to?? And why are orders so difficult to fill?
Ok, US market go haywire in this week with the bankrupcy of leighman brothers. Merrilyn Lynch and AIG, AIA also in troubles. Economy not looking good. Joyce held a meetinh with us to caution us of the economic market and upcoming days in recruitment will be more difficult for the upcoming year. Now also with the new maternity law passed by Sngapore govt, female candidates will have a harder time to find a perm job.
Just seen the dental this morning... hope i dun have to remove my wisdom tooth and the swollen gums will recover. Praying hard... Spent too much on my tooth already.
Wow, so fast. Two months passed sinced i last update my blog. Time flies and goes. Let me see, what happened these two months. I realised time really pass very quickly, especially now that i'm working in Staff Solutions. Monday, then tuesday... go for dialysis.. wednesday.. thursday.. go for dialysis then friday and its weekend. Ah! time pass so fast, so many resumes sent and follow up done in a week but so hard to close orders. Candidates come and go. Good candidates esp chinese will find job in just a day time. Today interview, tomorrow already found job... where did all the good candidates go to?? And why are orders so difficult to fill?
Ok, US market go haywire in this week with the bankrupcy of leighman brothers. Merrilyn Lynch and AIG, AIA also in troubles. Economy not looking good. Joyce held a meetinh with us to caution us of the economic market and upcoming days in recruitment will be more difficult for the upcoming year. Now also with the new maternity law passed by Sngapore govt, female candidates will have a harder time to find a perm job.
Just seen the dental this morning... hope i dun have to remove my wisdom tooth and the swollen gums will recover. Praying hard... Spent too much on my tooth already.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Cha Hua exam
15 July 2008
Today is the cha hua exam. Oh no, w/o teacher's guidance, i'm not so confident that i cha all the previous arrangements that i have learned. Teacher let us draw lots of the arrangement that we must be tested on. Phew, i got the long shape arrangement, one that i like and is easier for me.
Teacher assigned red rose (10), white orchid (5), forget me not (5) and leaves for the long shape arrangement. The red rose were very pretty as they were well bloom and big. I concentrate in arranging my flowers for the long shape and finally its done. Oops... something is wrong somewhere though the whole arrangement looked very nice. "Yours is long shape ah, i thought its round shape" noted an auntie from my class. Ya hor, i forgot to arrange longer leaves and flowers at the 2 sides to make it a long shape. Oh no, can it still be saved? Quickly, i went to get more leaves and tried to make the leaves long, but the flowers were cut too short and cannot be lengthened. Aiya, whatever lah, as long as i'm happy with the arrangement and its passable. Not bad the end results were quite good. Haha... probably because the flowers were beautiful.
246 PM
15 July 2008
I went to NKF for the orientation placement programme today. They passed me an orientation pack with a slip of paper (written Aljunied DC Blk 102, 246 PM). OMG... 246PM, does it mean 2.46pm? What an odd timing? Haha... later then i found out that i got it wrongly. Its actually 2, 4, 6 (tue, thurs, sat) 3rd shift (pm).
I went to NKF for the orientation placement programme today. They passed me an orientation pack with a slip of paper (written Aljunied DC Blk 102, 246 PM). OMG... 246PM, does it mean 2.46pm? What an odd timing? Haha... later then i found out that i got it wrongly. Its actually 2, 4, 6 (tue, thurs, sat) 3rd shift (pm).
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Kidney Trading Debate
06 July 2008
I read with interest over the organ transplant debate in the newspaper recently. The debate started since the news & newspaper publicize the case of organ trading between the CK Tang chief and an indonesian - Sulaiman. I pity both the donor and Mr CK Tang. Mr CK Tang was alrady on the verge of receiving the organ and getting a new lease of life but it was all in vain at the last minute. I can imagine his hope being tarnished and worst still, a simple hope of life and survivor was termed illegal w/o even having the transplant done. If he had the transplant at least all the troubles would have been well worth. The donor - a simple minded indonesian was jailed and fined for this case. Is it his fault? A desire for money and a better way of life? What is illegal in this case is definitely a controversial topic. I guess any topic that concerns humananity are controversial.
Being a kidney failure patient myself, i could identify with Mr CK Tang and his hope for survival. Given his age, waiting for an organ is impossible for him and dialysis is the only option for him untill he pass off. I have seen elderly patients in my dialysis centre and seen their pain and agony. Some are crippled due to other health conditions. I am thankful that i am still young and able to endure the difficulties. I also wonder how long i can last to be fit with dialysis. Stories i have heard scarded me but there is nothing i could do. Being on dialysis is like putting yourself on a machine and theres nothing you can do besides allowing the machine to manage you. Mr CK Tang has all the money in the world to purchase the organ but this also highlight the fact that money cannot buy health. Giving up a kidney for a normal person will not do a donor any harm but who will do it if it was not for someone close or for some forms of returns? As long as the donor is willing, what is wrong or illegal? Pierre Pang donated part of his liver to Andrea, that was noble of him. If it weren't for him, Andrea would not have lived till today. I hope MOH would review the policy in the near future and sees things from the patients' point of view instead...
I read with interest over the organ transplant debate in the newspaper recently. The debate started since the news & newspaper publicize the case of organ trading between the CK Tang chief and an indonesian - Sulaiman. I pity both the donor and Mr CK Tang. Mr CK Tang was alrady on the verge of receiving the organ and getting a new lease of life but it was all in vain at the last minute. I can imagine his hope being tarnished and worst still, a simple hope of life and survivor was termed illegal w/o even having the transplant done. If he had the transplant at least all the troubles would have been well worth. The donor - a simple minded indonesian was jailed and fined for this case. Is it his fault? A desire for money and a better way of life? What is illegal in this case is definitely a controversial topic. I guess any topic that concerns humananity are controversial.
Being a kidney failure patient myself, i could identify with Mr CK Tang and his hope for survival. Given his age, waiting for an organ is impossible for him and dialysis is the only option for him untill he pass off. I have seen elderly patients in my dialysis centre and seen their pain and agony. Some are crippled due to other health conditions. I am thankful that i am still young and able to endure the difficulties. I also wonder how long i can last to be fit with dialysis. Stories i have heard scarded me but there is nothing i could do. Being on dialysis is like putting yourself on a machine and theres nothing you can do besides allowing the machine to manage you. Mr CK Tang has all the money in the world to purchase the organ but this also highlight the fact that money cannot buy health. Giving up a kidney for a normal person will not do a donor any harm but who will do it if it was not for someone close or for some forms of returns? As long as the donor is willing, what is wrong or illegal? Pierre Pang donated part of his liver to Andrea, that was noble of him. If it weren't for him, Andrea would not have lived till today. I hope MOH would review the policy in the near future and sees things from the patients' point of view instead...
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Updates as at June 2008
28 Jun 2008
I went for a haircut today. Haha... cut it short, feel so refreshed now. If only everything can start afresh like having a haircut, cut away the unwanted and starting afresh again. If only...
Time flies, it is now June in 2008. I have been undergoing dialysis for a year already unconsciously. Ironically, my life now revolves around work, dialysis, family and occasional outings with friends. Someone once told me: "Only with acceptance comes adaptibily and change." I believe its true. I been through the stages of denial, acceptance and now adapting to the lifestyle and making the best out of it. Changes is continuous occurring as when i'm registered with NKF next time, the schedule will change again. Hope everything will be better. I am thankful for my boss - Joyce who is tolerant and allow me the flexibility such that i can make the changes smoothly. She is a really nice person, i have really learnt a lot from her. Lily (my colleague) too. Relationship with my mum also grew closer during this period. She is always there for me. I have learnt to enjoy the little things in life, eating & enjoying what i am able to eat, cooking healthy meals, flower arrangement and new hobby (baking - after doing it once at hongguang's house). Btw... i think i eat a lot nowadays, cos i always feel empty after dialysis. When i thought i can gain a bit of weight, the nurses will suck all the weight gain out saying that its water weight (which is true, i guess). Like what Joe said once, dialysis is like a free slimming treatment.
Last week ying took me to Auntie Ouyang (she had 2 kidney transplant done before - one from her father and one from china). She is very nice and I understand a lot from her. Will consider transplant as an alternative. Today read from the news abt the CK Tang CEO who bought a kidney from an Indonesian illegally and caught caught. Dr Lye is the doctor in charge of his case. The health minister mentioned in the news that the average wait for a transplant for those on the waiting list is 9 years. Seems so long... Better don't think so much, time wld pass unconsciously if you don't harp on it.
I have been working at Staff Solutions since Jan 2008. So fast, its been 6 months. Economy is bad now and sales had not been so good for this month. Employers are choosy and some companies are freezing their headcount. Yesterday, Joyce spoke to me on how to improve my performance. I also feel that i need to do something to improve my sales. Time is my limitation since i cannot commit full-time to the job. I really need to plan and come up with a strategy to work better. Jia you ba, Liyun.
I went for a haircut today. Haha... cut it short, feel so refreshed now. If only everything can start afresh like having a haircut, cut away the unwanted and starting afresh again. If only...
Time flies, it is now June in 2008. I have been undergoing dialysis for a year already unconsciously. Ironically, my life now revolves around work, dialysis, family and occasional outings with friends. Someone once told me: "Only with acceptance comes adaptibily and change." I believe its true. I been through the stages of denial, acceptance and now adapting to the lifestyle and making the best out of it. Changes is continuous occurring as when i'm registered with NKF next time, the schedule will change again. Hope everything will be better. I am thankful for my boss - Joyce who is tolerant and allow me the flexibility such that i can make the changes smoothly. She is a really nice person, i have really learnt a lot from her. Lily (my colleague) too. Relationship with my mum also grew closer during this period. She is always there for me. I have learnt to enjoy the little things in life, eating & enjoying what i am able to eat, cooking healthy meals, flower arrangement and new hobby (baking - after doing it once at hongguang's house). Btw... i think i eat a lot nowadays, cos i always feel empty after dialysis. When i thought i can gain a bit of weight, the nurses will suck all the weight gain out saying that its water weight (which is true, i guess). Like what Joe said once, dialysis is like a free slimming treatment.
Last week ying took me to Auntie Ouyang (she had 2 kidney transplant done before - one from her father and one from china). She is very nice and I understand a lot from her. Will consider transplant as an alternative. Today read from the news abt the CK Tang CEO who bought a kidney from an Indonesian illegally and caught caught. Dr Lye is the doctor in charge of his case. The health minister mentioned in the news that the average wait for a transplant for those on the waiting list is 9 years. Seems so long... Better don't think so much, time wld pass unconsciously if you don't harp on it.
I have been working at Staff Solutions since Jan 2008. So fast, its been 6 months. Economy is bad now and sales had not been so good for this month. Employers are choosy and some companies are freezing their headcount. Yesterday, Joyce spoke to me on how to improve my performance. I also feel that i need to do something to improve my sales. Time is my limitation since i cannot commit full-time to the job. I really need to plan and come up with a strategy to work better. Jia you ba, Liyun.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Holiday at genting
20 June 2008
Came back from my genting trip 2 days ago. It was a relaxing trip, though short. I went shopping, movies (only 12 RM), eating and casino (didn't gamble, only play the jackpot for a while, don't understand how it goes) with Qin qin jie jie etc. Nothing much to do there actually...
How time flies, its is approaching the end of June soon.
Came back from my genting trip 2 days ago. It was a relaxing trip, though short. I went shopping, movies (only 12 RM), eating and casino (didn't gamble, only play the jackpot for a while, don't understand how it goes) with Qin qin jie jie etc. Nothing much to do there actually...
How time flies, its is approaching the end of June soon.
Friday, May 30, 2008
Application to NKF
30 May 2008
Today i went with mum to NKF for application. This is my 2nd attempt to apply for doing my dialysis at NKF.
The appointment was fixed at 3pm but we reach at 3.30pm. It was raining heavily when we went there. Luckily i brought mum along with me, she is good at telling them how i need the subsidy like bargaining in the market. Have to applaud her for that. Our means test interview was conducted by Ms Charlene Chua. She is a very nice lady and was very helpful. Unlike the last time when i was there, i got rejected immediately. It has been a year since the last time. A lot of things has changed... Charlene approved my NKF application and offered to apply for subsidy for me. Yippy, i passed the first step of the application. Tomorrow i will go to SGH Medical Record Office and apply for the medical report by the doctor to submit to NKF. This is the 2nd step and will take abt 3 weeks to 1 month depending on the speed of the doctor. The medical record will cost anoth $85.27. Finally i need to be assesed by the NKF doctor fo suitability. What a long process, think will take abt 2 months for the entire process.
In future i have to adapt to having dialysis 3x per week as NKF does not allow compromise unlike privae dialysis centre. Tomorrow have to break the news to Staff nurse Fuzar (RTC-Hougang) my intention to transfer to NKF. The nurses at RTC were very good to me, i appreciate and will miss them.
Today i went with mum to NKF for application. This is my 2nd attempt to apply for doing my dialysis at NKF.
The appointment was fixed at 3pm but we reach at 3.30pm. It was raining heavily when we went there. Luckily i brought mum along with me, she is good at telling them how i need the subsidy like bargaining in the market. Have to applaud her for that. Our means test interview was conducted by Ms Charlene Chua. She is a very nice lady and was very helpful. Unlike the last time when i was there, i got rejected immediately. It has been a year since the last time. A lot of things has changed... Charlene approved my NKF application and offered to apply for subsidy for me. Yippy, i passed the first step of the application. Tomorrow i will go to SGH Medical Record Office and apply for the medical report by the doctor to submit to NKF. This is the 2nd step and will take abt 3 weeks to 1 month depending on the speed of the doctor. The medical record will cost anoth $85.27. Finally i need to be assesed by the NKF doctor fo suitability. What a long process, think will take abt 2 months for the entire process.
In future i have to adapt to having dialysis 3x per week as NKF does not allow compromise unlike privae dialysis centre. Tomorrow have to break the news to Staff nurse Fuzar (RTC-Hougang) my intention to transfer to NKF. The nurses at RTC were very good to me, i appreciate and will miss them.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
20 May 2008
Collected my blood test results from the doctor today. OMG! Everything is high. So scary. My liver enzymes (ALT & AST) were escalating high. God, why like that? I already try to control everything already although i admit i did relax more nowadays. Sianz... Doctor told me to go for dialysis 3 times per week, to clean off all the toxins. I shld do that. Toxins build up in the body is not good. I will try to reapply for NKF again...
Alanine transaminase transfers an amino group from alanine to a-ketoglutarate. Its high levels in blood indicate alcoholic or viral hepatitis, CCF, liver damage, or biliary duct problems. However its levels fluctuate over the course of the day and even during strenuous activity. Aspartate transamine facilitates the conversion of aspartate and a-ketoglutarate to oxaloacetate and glutamate. It is raised in acute liver damage, damage to RBCs, cardiac muscle, skeletal muscle, kidney and brain tissue.
Have to go on strict diet regime again. Very difficult as mum is such a great cook and always buy good stuff to eat. Gan ba teh, jia you!!
Collected my blood test results from the doctor today. OMG! Everything is high. So scary. My liver enzymes (ALT & AST) were escalating high. God, why like that? I already try to control everything already although i admit i did relax more nowadays. Sianz... Doctor told me to go for dialysis 3 times per week, to clean off all the toxins. I shld do that. Toxins build up in the body is not good. I will try to reapply for NKF again...
Alanine transaminase transfers an amino group from alanine to a-ketoglutarate. Its high levels in blood indicate alcoholic or viral hepatitis, CCF, liver damage, or biliary duct problems. However its levels fluctuate over the course of the day and even during strenuous activity. Aspartate transamine facilitates the conversion of aspartate and a-ketoglutarate to oxaloacetate and glutamate. It is raised in acute liver damage, damage to RBCs, cardiac muscle, skeletal muscle, kidney and brain tissue.
Have to go on strict diet regime again. Very difficult as mum is such a great cook and always buy good stuff to eat. Gan ba teh, jia you!!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Cha Hua Ban
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22 Apr 2008
Today i start my ist flower arrangement class at Fu Hai. Haha... the ist step towards my dream, to open a flower shop when i retire as i told lily.
The teachers were late. Oh no, forgot to eat something before in come, dunno what time the class will end. The arrangement we are learning today is that of "Yuan Xing (round)". The flowers which the teacher gave to us are red carnation, white porn porn and fern leave. It seems easy when we see the teacher arranging it. But when we do it ourselves, then i realised flower arrangement is really an art and tactic. The teacher has a flower shop outside and is teaching at fu hai voluntarily.
I enjoyed the class very much and is looking forward to the next class.
Today i start my ist flower arrangement class at Fu Hai. Haha... the ist step towards my dream, to open a flower shop when i retire as i told lily.
The teachers were late. Oh no, forgot to eat something before in come, dunno what time the class will end. The arrangement we are learning today is that of "Yuan Xing (round)". The flowers which the teacher gave to us are red carnation, white porn porn and fern leave. It seems easy when we see the teacher arranging it. But when we do it ourselves, then i realised flower arrangement is really an art and tactic. The teacher has a flower shop outside and is teaching at fu hai voluntarily.
I enjoyed the class very much and is looking forward to the next class.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
19 Apr 2008
Received my blood test results last week. Sianz... everything high, mayhap its becos its done 4 days after my dialysis. Have to watch my phosphate and potassium levels. No soya products and chocolates please!!! Next blood test will be done in Mid-May, hopefully can achieve better results. This is my goal. Gan ba teh!!
Guolian cousin have undergone the kidney transplant 2 weeks ago. She looks good. Really envy her, her efforts have paid off after staying for almost a month in hospital. Baofa (her husband) says there is no difference with only 1 kidney.
Today, Fook Hai temple called me about the flower arrangement class which i enquire about earlier. Next tuesday start class. Was deciding whether i should go for it, i think i will, after all i have been thinking of learning for a long time. You only live life once, and there should be no regrets.
Received my blood test results last week. Sianz... everything high, mayhap its becos its done 4 days after my dialysis. Have to watch my phosphate and potassium levels. No soya products and chocolates please!!! Next blood test will be done in Mid-May, hopefully can achieve better results. This is my goal. Gan ba teh!!
Guolian cousin have undergone the kidney transplant 2 weeks ago. She looks good. Really envy her, her efforts have paid off after staying for almost a month in hospital. Baofa (her husband) says there is no difference with only 1 kidney.
Today, Fook Hai temple called me about the flower arrangement class which i enquire about earlier. Next tuesday start class. Was deciding whether i should go for it, i think i will, after all i have been thinking of learning for a long time. You only live life once, and there should be no regrets.
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Overeat
21 Mar 2008
I overindulged myself today, eat a lot. Went with mum to the Bendemeer market and ordered a lot to eat. Not actually a lot but too much for my condition and not healthy food for me. I shared a bowl of fishball and minced meat mee pok, popiah & roti prata with mum. Had 1 soon kueh to myself. Before we went home, we even ta pao pancake to eat. I ate 1 coffee pancake and 1 padan pancake. Feel so sinful. I think i must be a hungry ghost in my previous life.
I overindulged myself today, eat a lot. Went with mum to the Bendemeer market and ordered a lot to eat. Not actually a lot but too much for my condition and not healthy food for me. I shared a bowl of fishball and minced meat mee pok, popiah & roti prata with mum. Had 1 soon kueh to myself. Before we went home, we even ta pao pancake to eat. I ate 1 coffee pancake and 1 padan pancake. Feel so sinful. I think i must be a hungry ghost in my previous life.
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Last day of 2007
31 Dec 2007
Today is the last day of 2007. Finally ts over. 2007 to me is the turning point of my life. Too much things have happened this year. I have since rown up and my life will never be the same again.
29 May 2007, i was hospitalised because of high blood pressure. Fear overcome me at that time. I battle with the high blood pressure and low hb for abt 1 week. On 4 Jun, i started on my dialysis for the first time. Staying in the hospital for 2 weeks, i weeped... The tears were for myself and also for my stupidness in contributing so much for SISO. It is not worth and in the end its my body that suffers.
I have began dialysis for close to half a year already. Would i recover? Have been searching for a job but to no avail. But during this time, i went to science buddies to work as a tutor, being a childcare teacher at Kidsworld and also work for a short time at OSIM as Training Executive.
My 27th birthday is an unforgettable event. Wenhua, Jinglan and baozhu celebrated for me in sentosa with a surprise. I was really touched. On my actual birthday, i had to go to the hospital for myAvascular surgery. I spend my birthday with the doctors and nurses under the knife. Truly unforgettble and painful.
In this year, i've learnt:
1) The value of kinship
2) Manage and be responsible for my own health. Nobody understand it better than ownself
3) Never give up! Believe in miracles.
4) Must be strong. The harder life is, the stronger i must be. Tomorrow will be better!
5) If others don't give you chance, i must perserve and do better.
6) Must be optimisic
Today is the last day of 2007. Finally ts over. 2007 to me is the turning point of my life. Too much things have happened this year. I have since rown up and my life will never be the same again.
29 May 2007, i was hospitalised because of high blood pressure. Fear overcome me at that time. I battle with the high blood pressure and low hb for abt 1 week. On 4 Jun, i started on my dialysis for the first time. Staying in the hospital for 2 weeks, i weeped... The tears were for myself and also for my stupidness in contributing so much for SISO. It is not worth and in the end its my body that suffers.
I have began dialysis for close to half a year already. Would i recover? Have been searching for a job but to no avail. But during this time, i went to science buddies to work as a tutor, being a childcare teacher at Kidsworld and also work for a short time at OSIM as Training Executive.
My 27th birthday is an unforgettable event. Wenhua, Jinglan and baozhu celebrated for me in sentosa with a surprise. I was really touched. On my actual birthday, i had to go to the hospital for myAvascular surgery. I spend my birthday with the doctors and nurses under the knife. Truly unforgettble and painful.
In this year, i've learnt:
1) The value of kinship
2) Manage and be responsible for my own health. Nobody understand it better than ownself
3) Never give up! Believe in miracles.
4) Must be strong. The harder life is, the stronger i must be. Tomorrow will be better!
5) If others don't give you chance, i must perserve and do better.
6) Must be optimisic
Ist dialysis with the hand
8 November 2007
I had my ist dialysis session with the hand today. The needle was thick and it was painful. The feeling was uncomfortable. I can't move my hand throughout the 4 hours. I can't imagine what the feeling is when i have to go thru it on the same spot again. Must be real painful. Will it be better when the pain becomes numbness or is it more scary? Because this means that i have adapted to this life.
How i wish i could be like Guolian, to have someone(her husband) to donate the kidney to her and not having to go through all these.
I had my ist dialysis session with the hand today. The needle was thick and it was painful. The feeling was uncomfortable. I can't move my hand throughout the 4 hours. I can't imagine what the feeling is when i have to go thru it on the same spot again. Must be real painful. Will it be better when the pain becomes numbness or is it more scary? Because this means that i have adapted to this life.
How i wish i could be like Guolian, to have someone(her husband) to donate the kidney to her and not having to go through all these.
My 27th Birthday
27 Aug 2007
My 27th birthday -an unforgettable day...
I have to wake up at 5.30am today because today is the day that i have to go for my AVF surgery. My surgery is at 8am and i have to reach the hospital at 7am. After breakfast, , mum and me took a cab and reach SGH Block 1, surgical Ambulary Centre at 7.05am.
The doctor (Dr SG Tan) was late. The surgery was supposed to start at 8am but becos of his lateness, it only began at 8.30am. I was conscious throughout the entire surgery as he only gave me local anaesthetic for the hand. I could hear the conversation betw the nurses and doctor as well as feel their movements. It was scary, the feeling of not seeing what happened but knowing that someone is cutting my hand open and feeling the pulling of my veins. Really painful! The surgery ended at 10.30am.
I would never forget today and the year 2007. This year was brother's wedding, WSHO 2007 (an event that i was pretty successful and satisfied) and also the year i was diagnosed with kidney failure. 2007 is a year which made me realize happiness, sadness, pain and distress.
My 27th birthday -an unforgettable day...
I have to wake up at 5.30am today because today is the day that i have to go for my AVF surgery. My surgery is at 8am and i have to reach the hospital at 7am. After breakfast, , mum and me took a cab and reach SGH Block 1, surgical Ambulary Centre at 7.05am.
The doctor (Dr SG Tan) was late. The surgery was supposed to start at 8am but becos of his lateness, it only began at 8.30am. I was conscious throughout the entire surgery as he only gave me local anaesthetic for the hand. I could hear the conversation betw the nurses and doctor as well as feel their movements. It was scary, the feeling of not seeing what happened but knowing that someone is cutting my hand open and feeling the pulling of my veins. Really painful! The surgery ended at 10.30am.
I would never forget today and the year 2007. This year was brother's wedding, WSHO 2007 (an event that i was pretty successful and satisfied) and also the year i was diagnosed with kidney failure. 2007 is a year which made me realize happiness, sadness, pain and distress.
Friday, April 4, 2008
Ist encounter with Dr Lye Wai Cheong (MEH)
30 Jun 2007
Today is the first time i went to MEH to see Dr Lye Wai Cheong. He said that i shldn't have started dialysis in the hospital. Now that its already started, he will see if my condition can be controlled with medcine. I should go back and see him every two days to monitor...
I really hope that he can cure me and i don't have to go for dialysis again. I wish... i wish i'm given more time and able to live well again, i'm still young, god please give me a chance to value my life and take care of mother.
Life is short and precious
Treasure the present
Today is a gift, value everyday that god gives you
Health and family is the most important aspect of life.
Today is the first time i went to MEH to see Dr Lye Wai Cheong. He said that i shldn't have started dialysis in the hospital. Now that its already started, he will see if my condition can be controlled with medcine. I should go back and see him every two days to monitor...
I really hope that he can cure me and i don't have to go for dialysis again. I wish... i wish i'm given more time and able to live well again, i'm still young, god please give me a chance to value my life and take care of mother.
Life is short and precious
Treasure the present
Today is a gift, value everyday that god gives you
Health and family is the most important aspect of life.
NKF
20 Jun 2007
Today i went to NKF for the application. Joe is the one who interviewed me. Coincidently, he was also the one who interviewed me two years ago in 2005, but he don't recognize me. The situation is different now, two years ago i came for interview for a job but now i'm applying for dialysis at NKF. How funny. God likes to play tricks on people, life is like a circle of events, unknowingly linked together.
My NKF application is rejected. Because Joe feel that i dun need NKF's assistance giving the reason that i'm still young and still have the ability to work. Also my family income (inclusive of brother's and Wee Swan's) far exceed their criteria for grants. He was right, i still have the capability to work and compared to the less fortunate, i'm much luckier. How can i fight with them for the grant?
Although the application failed, i made a friend thru Joe. We are really fated, my twice interview at NKF were interviewed by Joe. He shared with me a lot of kidney info:
1) Kidney Dialysis patients are still able to go aboad, but bef going abroad must make
arrangement for dialysis in that country.
www.globaldialysis.com
2) Dialysis into the 3rd hr will start to have cramp and rxn. If extract too much water will exp.
cramp.
3) Eat more high protein food.
4) Dialysis will auto slim down. Cannot grow fat or put on weight i realized...
Today i went to NKF for the application. Joe is the one who interviewed me. Coincidently, he was also the one who interviewed me two years ago in 2005, but he don't recognize me. The situation is different now, two years ago i came for interview for a job but now i'm applying for dialysis at NKF. How funny. God likes to play tricks on people, life is like a circle of events, unknowingly linked together.
My NKF application is rejected. Because Joe feel that i dun need NKF's assistance giving the reason that i'm still young and still have the ability to work. Also my family income (inclusive of brother's and Wee Swan's) far exceed their criteria for grants. He was right, i still have the capability to work and compared to the less fortunate, i'm much luckier. How can i fight with them for the grant?
Although the application failed, i made a friend thru Joe. We are really fated, my twice interview at NKF were interviewed by Joe. He shared with me a lot of kidney info:
1) Kidney Dialysis patients are still able to go aboad, but bef going abroad must make
arrangement for dialysis in that country.
www.globaldialysis.com
2) Dialysis into the 3rd hr will start to have cramp and rxn. If extract too much water will exp.
cramp.
3) Eat more high protein food.
4) Dialysis will auto slim down. Cannot grow fat or put on weight i realized...
Youngberg (Serangoon)
15 Jun 2007
Stayed in hospital for 2 weeks, finally they agree to discharge me on 13 Jun (wed) night after my dialysis session. I told mum i want to go home even though its late at night and i could have stayed another day untill morning (charges is the same). I am really sick of the hospital and the particular ward!
Today, start ist private dialysis at Youngberg (Serangoon). Although the outlook of the centre dun look friendly, the nurses there wer quite nice and friendly.
Stayed in hospital for 2 weeks, finally they agree to discharge me on 13 Jun (wed) night after my dialysis session. I told mum i want to go home even though its late at night and i could have stayed another day untill morning (charges is the same). I am really sick of the hospital and the particular ward!
Today, start ist private dialysis at Youngberg (Serangoon). Although the outlook of the centre dun look friendly, the nurses there wer quite nice and friendly.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Beginnings of my nightmare...
28 May 2007
I went to MEH for the follow-up appointment on the blurness of my right eye. Dr Khoo was the eye specialist i was referred to. He said that the blurness is due to hypertensive retinopathy, blood vessels on my eye area had ruptured due to my uncontrolled high blood pressure. Knowing that i had kidney problem, he wants me to go quickly back to my SGH doctor for consultation. On Dr Khoo's persistence, Dr Tan Han Khim agreed to see me in the afternoon. Luckily mother was with me on that day. Because it was only the beginning of my nighmare...
We had porridge in Chinatown bef going for the appm. So sad, it was my last time having porridge there at the porridge store... As usual, we had to wait for abt two hrs bef it was my turn to see Dr Tan. On seeing him, the ist thing he did is to check my bld pressure. My god, it had gone up to 200/120. Hospitalised immediatey! he said. This is the first time i felt fear and understand the seriousness of my condition. I told him and mum that i don't want to be hospitalised. No i don't want, how can it be? I have always been healthy. Mother was with me assuring me that everything will be alright and hospitalised for a few days will not matter. And that Dr Tan chased me out of his room to be hospitalised immed. What kind of Doctor is that, i come to see him and he just see me to be hospitalised?
We waited outside for quite a while bef the ah ma came with a wheelchair to take me to the ward. By then, i'm trembling, is it from fear or because of my low bld count, i'm not sure. I said that i could walk but she insist on fetching me to the ward in the wheelchair fearing that i will faint. She is mad~! How can i faint? I'm strong and fine, i was thinking to myself. It was evening time when i finally settle down in the Ward.
I went to MEH for the follow-up appointment on the blurness of my right eye. Dr Khoo was the eye specialist i was referred to. He said that the blurness is due to hypertensive retinopathy, blood vessels on my eye area had ruptured due to my uncontrolled high blood pressure. Knowing that i had kidney problem, he wants me to go quickly back to my SGH doctor for consultation. On Dr Khoo's persistence, Dr Tan Han Khim agreed to see me in the afternoon. Luckily mother was with me on that day. Because it was only the beginning of my nighmare...
We had porridge in Chinatown bef going for the appm. So sad, it was my last time having porridge there at the porridge store... As usual, we had to wait for abt two hrs bef it was my turn to see Dr Tan. On seeing him, the ist thing he did is to check my bld pressure. My god, it had gone up to 200/120. Hospitalised immediatey! he said. This is the first time i felt fear and understand the seriousness of my condition. I told him and mum that i don't want to be hospitalised. No i don't want, how can it be? I have always been healthy. Mother was with me assuring me that everything will be alright and hospitalised for a few days will not matter. And that Dr Tan chased me out of his room to be hospitalised immed. What kind of Doctor is that, i come to see him and he just see me to be hospitalised?
We waited outside for quite a while bef the ah ma came with a wheelchair to take me to the ward. By then, i'm trembling, is it from fear or because of my low bld count, i'm not sure. I said that i could walk but she insist on fetching me to the ward in the wheelchair fearing that i will faint. She is mad~! How can i faint? I'm strong and fine, i was thinking to myself. It was evening time when i finally settle down in the Ward.
Still in hospital :(
5 Jun 2007
One week already and i am still here...
Staying in hospital for 1 week, i am slowly adapting to life here. Oh no, 'adapt' shouldn't be the correct word to use here, isn't it? My bld pressure has began to go down only on sunday, 5 days after being hospitalised. Now i'm really scard, i don't dare to not eat my high blood medcine again.
Although my pressure has gone down, my other bld results were not idea, in fact worse than before. Creatinine and urea is at a dangerously high level. My electrolytes level (sodium and calcium) were low. Had 2 packets of calcium transfused into me. Because calcium is low, had cramps all over.
Yesterday on 4 Jun 2007 is my first time starting dialysis. 4pm, the nurse came to push me for the surgery to put the temporary cathether on the leg for dialysis. When the doc gave me the anaesthesia and when he insert in the tube, at one time it was really painful. But the surgery was fast. I was pushed into the dialysis room at 4.30pm and began my first dialysis at 5.30pm.
I feel much better after the dialysis and now awaiting my blood test.
One week already and i am still here...
Staying in hospital for 1 week, i am slowly adapting to life here. Oh no, 'adapt' shouldn't be the correct word to use here, isn't it? My bld pressure has began to go down only on sunday, 5 days after being hospitalised. Now i'm really scard, i don't dare to not eat my high blood medcine again.
Although my pressure has gone down, my other bld results were not idea, in fact worse than before. Creatinine and urea is at a dangerously high level. My electrolytes level (sodium and calcium) were low. Had 2 packets of calcium transfused into me. Because calcium is low, had cramps all over.
Yesterday on 4 Jun 2007 is my first time starting dialysis. 4pm, the nurse came to push me for the surgery to put the temporary cathether on the leg for dialysis. When the doc gave me the anaesthesia and when he insert in the tube, at one time it was really painful. But the surgery was fast. I was pushed into the dialysis room at 4.30pm and began my first dialysis at 5.30pm.
I feel much better after the dialysis and now awaiting my blood test.
Vesak Day
31 May 2007
Today is Vesak Day and also the third day i am in hospital.
The ist day i was hospitalised, my bld hemoglobin is tested to be very low, only 5.5 g/l. That night on the first day, the MO (a very nice doc with specs) came and draw my blood for retest a few times in the night, disturb my sleep. But he was very nice, coz he said: sorry for disturbing your beauty sleep. Hee, that was a condolescence. The next morning , i had 1 bag of O+ blood transfused into me. Shit, that was a rotten feeling.
Staying in hospital for 3 days make me think a lot... I have been working and slogging for SISO for too long. Its time i had a break and rest. I guess the WSHO Conference 2007 really tires me out. Staying in hospital makes me understand the importance of health as well as the value of kinship and friends. Guobin, guolian, kun kun and ying ying came to visit me as soon as they know that i am hospitalised. Clara, joan, baozhu, wenhua and jinglan also came to visit me. Of course, mother was with me everyday. Brother and wee swan also came as often as they can.
Today is Vesak Day and also the third day i am in hospital.
The ist day i was hospitalised, my bld hemoglobin is tested to be very low, only 5.5 g/l. That night on the first day, the MO (a very nice doc with specs) came and draw my blood for retest a few times in the night, disturb my sleep. But he was very nice, coz he said: sorry for disturbing your beauty sleep. Hee, that was a condolescence. The next morning , i had 1 bag of O+ blood transfused into me. Shit, that was a rotten feeling.
Staying in hospital for 3 days make me think a lot... I have been working and slogging for SISO for too long. Its time i had a break and rest. I guess the WSHO Conference 2007 really tires me out. Staying in hospital makes me understand the importance of health as well as the value of kinship and friends. Guobin, guolian, kun kun and ying ying came to visit me as soon as they know that i am hospitalised. Clara, joan, baozhu, wenhua and jinglan also came to visit me. Of course, mother was with me everyday. Brother and wee swan also came as often as they can.
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